I tried so hard for the past few weeks. And what? Nothing my life is as bad as it was. It’s been a year since my brother died and I still haven’t moved on. Also, I think my boyfriend is only with me because he thinks if he leaves me I will kill myself, which is sad. To be honest, I think he secretly got a crush on his female friend from childhood. So yeah, my life is just fucking great. Added to that, I feel like killing myself right here, right now.
Sometimes I wonder why people like me are even alive? I mean what’s the point? To suffer? My life is getting nowhere. I feel worse everyday and now even the rest of the things started to get bad too. I Â might consider giving myself less time than I actually planned. World sucks.
I give myself until the end of September. If there still isn’t a meaning of this fucking life, I am going to end it! I am going to hang myslef on my bedroom door, at night, on my bag belt! I am going to end this ongoing pain! I have had enough!
Well, my story is much longer, but I don’t feel like writing it all. I have been depressed for 2 years been in mental hopsital twice, I am only 16 (17 next month). A year ago my brother’s girlfriend killed herself she had depression and they met at the hopsital. And then three months later my brother followed. I found him dead in our bathroom. We were really close and, my life was shit enough before he died. I have been in hopsital again for 3 months, been on different pills nothing makes me feel better. My life is just not getting any better. Nothing […]