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Gry

I’m clumsy.

by Gry 5/13/2018

written by Gry

If you get to know me, you’ll quickly learn I’m clumsy.

The truth is, though, that I’m not.

People who cut as a means of self-harm always seem strange to me. Of course that’s a cry for help. It’s both obvious and ineffectual. If you want to hurt yourself, just be careless. Just be clumsy.

I really thought I was doing much better, but as I find myself working with tools and I let a tool drag it’s way across the back of my hand, leaving a shallow furrow cut across my fingers, I realize that it’s not clumsiness. It’s deliberate. It’s an injury that will become nearly […]

5/13/2018 1 comment

What do you have to be afraid of?

by Gry 3/23/2016

written by Gry

I made some changes in my life. I wasn’t happy at my job, so I quit. I’ll need another job eventually, (I’m considering going back to school this fall, even) but for now I’m a house husband, blogger, working on some cosplay (because I wanted to grow up to be an Imagineer), preparing my first novel for self-pub via Amazon, and working on a second novel.

Life isn’t […]

3/23/2016 3 comments

I’m Afraid of Myself

by Gry 11/24/2015

written by Gry

It’s been months since I’ve had a truly good day, lots of okay days, thanks to my wife, but no days where I don’t think “You should end it. Today.”

Somewhere along the way, I picked up a coping method to keep myself alive: My “72 Hour” Rule. You’re going to kill yourself? Fine, but there’s a 72 hour waiting period. Do whatever. Plan it, buy supplies, make sure your affairs are in order, but you can’t kill yourself for 3 days. You’ve lived this long, what’s 3 more days? I’m not even saying you have to get out of bed – Just don’t die, that’s […]

11/24/2015 11 comments

Conspicuous Competence

by Gry 10/21/2015

written by Gry

(When I tried to register here, I never received a welcome email. Finally, in desparation, I requested a password reset. That came through. I’m glad I was able to login, but there’s a particularly poignant feeling of rejection when you try to register for a community like this and an expected email does not come through. Presumably the spam folder ate it, so it’s my own fault. I add this only as an anecdote.)

I always expect my work performance to drop when I’m feeling worse, and it does, but it’s still within the realm of acceptability.

I notice the drop in my stats, or the stagnation […]

10/21/2015 4 comments