I don’t know what to do anymore!! I am so lost and alone! I don’t think my husband loves me anymore, and that just makes it all much worse, than it already is! I’m so angry all the time, but I can’t stop crying! He says he loves me. but for some reason, I can’t believe it, I don’t understand why! I’ve been hurt so much,can’t take it anymore, the pain is unbearable! Somewhere deep down i know it, but I can’t trust it, I can’t trust anyone, never have been able to. He’s the only man that hasn’t given me a reason not to […]
I’m sooo tired of it all!! Don’t know what to do anymore! Can’t even stand to look in the mirror, I don’t know how much more I can take. Â I cry all the time now, can’t even get through one day without crying. My husband always asks if i’m okay, but the truth is, he really doesn’t wan’t know the answer to that question. I don’t know why he even bothers asking. I wanna believe he loves me, but I don’t know how. I feel as though everyone would be happier and better off if I were gone. Â I really believe they would all jump […]
Here lately I think about  It every day!! I’m just soo tired of everything! I’m tired of  living, tired of  hurting, tired of crying all the time, I just want to die! No on knows how I feel, not even my husband. You know I can even remember wanting to die and praying to die every night when I was 6, 11, 14, so on and so forth. That is the main thing I  remember about growing up. Although the reason’s have only piled up since then. I feel like everyone around me would be better of and happier if  I just died. Sometimes I […]