Does anyone else get this way? That when you’re feeling a little better you feel more likely to attempt suicide than when you’re feeling crappy? Maybe it’s because when I’m feeling good I have more energy, so I feel like I will have the strength and willpower to carry out my suicide. Or maybe it’s because I want to end it all on a good note, rather than spend my last moments in a miserable fog.
Why are there a bunch of tags on one of my posts? Can other people tag it themselves? They put some rude stuff, what is the point of posting here if people are going to be rude? :/
Smoked some weed and now I feel really depressed. I usually don’t get depressed when I smoke, but I ended up focusing on my BDD issues and now I feel horrible. I’m probably going to kill myself after I leave my mom’s house, because I don’t want to do it with my little brother and sister around. I wish I could do it sooner, though. I’m out of hope. I have these freakishly tiny hands, and I don’t care how stupid it sounds to other people, I feel like a freak 🙁
I was drinking tonight. And for the first time I really felt emboldened to just… take an action I can’t mention here. I really wanted to do it. But I realize it probably won’t give me the result I want. I’ll probably get really sick and then regret doing it because I’ll be in severe pain with horrific stomach cramps, or maybe scary seizures and frightening rapid heartbeat. Or maybe I’ll suffer brain damage and then be a vegetable, wonderful. I’ll then hate my life even more, but maybe then I’d have an excuse not to have to do anything (like go to work, which […]
My story is kind of long but I will just give the short version: I think I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Regardless, I am convinced I am a freak because of something that you all will probably think is absolutely ridiculous (but it distressed me nonetheless): the size of my hands.
No, I am not trolling. I am serious.
I am a 5’1 adult female and my hands are 6 inches long. I feel that they are too small for my body. I don’t know if this is true or not. I have had some comments on their smallness. I was on a date once and the […]
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