there is a bit of comfort here in this place. knowing that noone knows me or how to find me. knowing that i dont have to answer any questions, and can say whatever i want. i want to be numb. honestly the only reason i am still alive and breathing is because i havent found a quick way out of this life. i have attempted overdose of pills which only landed me in ICU with a tube down my stomach and 24 hours of isolation. I have had a gun to my head but then was afraid of knowing that it wasnt a big enough […]
i dont know what to write, say or even think right now. all i know is that i am tired, not in the physical sense although it it exhausting to wake up every morning knowing it is going to be the same bull shit that i have been putting up with to long. medication hasnt helped, mostly because i cant afford to stay on it, hospitals dont work-twice now at least, and friends dont work because nobody wants to be bothered, which is why its called “pity party for one”. I AM DONE. i dont want the attention of fake people saying they care knowing […]