First day and I still have to fight to not feel so fucking down when you’re not around. Your presence was what kept me alive. I miss you so much. Please come back ._.
I just talked with you like for three hours straight and I feel like flying, but I was dying to tell you how much you mean to me, and my fucking brain turned my feelings into words like ¿ How you been ?
There’s no doubts that now you’re not longer mine, You never were but I swear that what you gave me, made me feel like it was real; that I wasn’t dreaming. It hurts but it’s done. It’s so fucking hard to understand, but not impossible to knew that this was going to happen.
And just remember that besides you’re with someone else, and even that I know that the fucking time will pass, I will never ever forget you, besides everything I’ll love you. I love you.
To whom you decided to love, I don’t really know if she’s aware of the blessing that she […]
Today’s on fire, the sky is bleeding above me, and I am blistered.
I walk these lines of blasphemy, every day…
And still, like a bad star, I’m falling faster down to him,
He’s the only one who knows, what it is to burn
I feel diseased, ¿Is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky’s still fire, but I am safe in here, from the world outside.
So tell me, ¿What’s the price to pay for glory?
I don’t know why I’m still fucking trying.
2 weeks and counting when you don’t even try to text me. What the fuck.
I put the fucking sky at your feet and you do this to me? What the fuck.
I bought you things, I made something for your birthday. What the fuck.
I tried to call you, I tried to text you, I still do. What the fuck.
I mean what the fuck is wrong with you, You’re playing with my fucking feelings.
What the fuck.
I put the fucking world at your fucking feet. Fuck you.
And you know what else? Fuck you […]
It comes in waves, I close my eyes, hold my breath and let it bury me.
I’m not okay and it’s not all right; ¿Won’t you drag the lake and bring me home again?
It was so nice to see you tonight. I feel alive. I love you much. I wish you could read this. I wish you could. I really love you.
I really love him. So much.
Happy birthday to the most beautiful and unique person I’ve ever met, I really love you, you know I’ll give everything for you, I want you to be happy and be fine. I know your heart is broken but I swear I can fix it if you let me try. I can try to make you happy. I love you so much. I swear. I wish I had the courage to tell you all this instead of writing it down where you can’t read it. You’re such a beautiful pain that I crave everyday. Even tho I know I’m broken I know that love can […]
You don’t deserve the way my heart aches at the thought of you.
And I can’t stop loving you.
There is so much pain in my heart. I can’t make you stay and that is breaking me inside and I wish you could se how much I love you, how much I need you. Please help me find a way to tell you, to let you know that without you I am lost. Help me to find a way to tell that I’ll ruin myself to fix you. I’d do anything to fix you. I’d do anything for you.
When you look at me like that, I don’t get it, I just can’t breathe at all. When you look at me like that, You make alive what I thought it was dead inside me. And all I want is learn a way of how to let you know…
I don’t know if I could handle it anymore, I’m dying of love and also of hope. I am afraid that I’ll do something to end this soon. T_T
I have the words on the tip of my tongue, but somehow my coward heart will not let me speak them out.
It’s wasting life, dying slowly. I should love pain, cause he’s the meaning of it.
Don’t go, I can’t do this on my own, save me from the ones that haunt me in the night I can’t live with myself, so stay with me tonight.
I come alive, when I’m falling down. I let myself go, ’til I hit the ground.
When I’m there, at the edge, in this moment I feel it I know, I come alive when I’m falling down.
You make me the happiest, but you make me the worst. With you I feel Complete but I also feel lost. I need you in my live but you make it harder to fight. I’d do everything, even If that means ruin myself for you.
I would ruin myself to fix you.
How can you tell how you feel about the one you love,that is hurting you and you can’t handle it, when the only person you can talk to is the one that you love the most?
I want to find the way so I could talk to him, and tell him that
here everything’s worst. That my will is dead, that I would like
to have a change to hug him, I want everything to be as it was,
my life is so grey that the pain will never go away.
I want to remember, that it’s better not to believe in love.
I should hate him for leaving me here, I’m just a nostalgic
lovesick person, that hates feeling like this.
8/09/14
4:10 am
He had eyes like coffee and hair like bread, skin like winter and brain like hell. He had lips like razors and heart like sun. He had beard like leafs and touch as cold. He loved me like spring, and left like the wind. He changed like the seasons, forgetting me.