I can’t stop the feeling i’ve been hiding like almost a year. Is haunting me again; i thought it was in the past. But i was lying to myself, even tho everyday i think about it for a minute, is part of my everyday memories and feelings; Â it comes back at night like a nightmare. I can’t control it, maybe is a sign that, it still remains to let me know that it’s not dead at all. That i can still save it. Save us. It won’t leave my head. That’s why i stay here.
I feel like given up, i won’t fight anymore. I’m drowning. But somehow, i’m still here; and i don’t fucking know what is pulling me out of the sea.
You think your days are uneventful,
And no one ever thinks about you;
She goes her own way.
You think your days are ordinary,
And no one ever thinks about you;
But we’re all the same,
And she can hardly breathe without you.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places. The day i lost him, I slowly lost myself too. When he died, he took a part of myself. No time for goodbyes. No explanations, no fucking reasons why. If only sorrow could build a staircase, my tears could show the way. I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him home again. I would do anything to bring him back to me. I would do anything to end what i’m going through. I would do anything to bring him back. Because if i got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew.
My  legs begin to break, i walked this path for far too long, my lungs, they start to ache, but still i’m carry on. I’m choking on my words like i got a noose around my neck. I can’t believe it’s come to this, and i fear, i fear, that the end is near. I fear that the fear is ending tonight.
I fear this is the end, this happens all the time, this happens every day,
But I never seem to quit.
I can’t stop the bleeding, and it’s only getting worse, this happens all the time
This happens every day
But I never seem to quit.
Only the dead have […]
That little kiss you stole, it held my heart and soul. And like a ghost in the silence i disappear, don’t try to fight the storm, you’ll tumble overboard. Tides will bring me back to you.
Don’t say I’m better off dead, cause heaven’s full and hell won’t have me.                                  Can you help me to stop sinking?                                                     […]
I’m scared to get close and i hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher i get, the lower i’ll sink.
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.
You’re tearing me apart,
When I can’t stop thinking and lock myself in my mind.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re always on my head and You’re forcing me to stop thinking of myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
When you want me to stop living, and concentrate on your feelings.
You’re tearing me apart,
Cause while time passes, flowers are dying and so am I.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re giving me reasons to not fight and give up on myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
All I can feel is the pain that you left and is keeping me by your side.
Without being there with you, but in your […]
It hurts when I hear your name,
It hurts when I see your picture,
It hurts when I read something that reminds me of you.
It hurts to miss you a lot.
It hurts to be alone.
It’s nice to love your best friend. But it’s not easy when you love love love your best friend. I mean when you fall in love. It’s hard to hide and hurts not to tell. And share. You should never ever ever tell them how you feel about that kind of love, cause you will lose your best friend and suddenly will become a stranger. Theres no such pain that can compare to love someone who doesn’t love you back. Yes you can take that risk and be brave enough to tell them. You can fail and get really fucking hurt, or in the case […]
“Somehow I’m gonna lose you, cause You’re not mine, and You’ll never be.
It hurts cause I want us to happen. I was us to be. I could bet that deep inside you, you feel the same way for me. I need a sign before is too late. I can’t tell you how much I need you, how much I love you, how much I want you. Before is too late, please be with me before I’m dead.”
How could I be so blind? I guess I fell in love too quickly… but I’m fine.
Imagine where you’d be now If you only knew, the one you love is the one who’s killing you.
I trusted you too much, I know now that I should have kept my eyes wide open.
I handed you a knife and my heart, and now the dream is over.
There’s something cold and blank behind her smile
She’s standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
“You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away”
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won’t save her from herself
Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls
I miss you so much. You were the only person who made me feel really loved for the first time. It was a lie and just for a moment. That hurts. Still. I miss you like crazy.
Sometimes it’s faded, disintegrated, for fear of growing old.
Sometimes it’s faded, assassinated, for fear of growing old.
Hang on, though I try.
It’s gone.
Can’t stop growing old.
But you don’t know what it’s like,
to wake up in the middle of the night,
scaring the thought of kissing razors.
I feel numb.
I feel so sad.
I need time, and I need life.
I hate being alone, but I’m always on my own.
Loneliness has become part of me, it’s always near,
I’m afraid of it, but I let myself embrace in it,
I want this to go, It really fucks me up.