From the time I was 2 until I was 14 I was raped molested and took from place to place for men to do what they wanted to me! My mom knew they beat and took my childhood. Then I was adopted at 11 and raped by the boys there until 14.. I am now 21 my spirit is broken my will to live is gone! And people tell you change the future.. Well I cant change the past and let me tell u it alot to do with your future. You look at me and you would never know anything had ever happen to.me… […]
Today was even worse I have this overwhelming desire not to live anymore. I passed a wreck I even stopped to see if everything was okay.. I got back in my car and cried because I wasnt the one who died in the wreck! I would gladly take the place of the other person.. I cry everyday more today then usual.. No one would care if I died my family would only be worried about their perfert image and what people would say about there daughter killin herself. My funeral would be filled with not close friends and a happy family but with people who […]
Everyday I wake up wondering why am I still alive! Everyday I think of so many ways to just end my life. I cry soo much everyday .. Im so alone and hurting I cant tell anyone around because they will call me crazy but im not! I just want it to be over I dont want this pain. No one can see how alone or how bad things really are. I am useless and coward. People who look at me think wow shes got the world at her finger tips.. I dont wanna have to be perfect anymore.. I […]