I eat , but when I do it doesn’t really feel like I’m eating , I only do it to keep my energy up , and even then it feels like im just shoving it force ably down my throat…
Been crying for hours still I cried myself to sleep; Now my head hurts ;Something always hurts for me…:tired of this
keep telling myself to just smile and laugh but i can’t do it for myself ; only if i’m with others maybe ,I don’t know what to thing , it all feels fake …but maybe…
>I feel like I’m done , Rejected without saying anything , Unaccepted , afraid if i show this side of my it’ll all be over,I built up too much of a wall  ; I can’t fucking do this anymore , keeping everything about myself to myself , emotions,actions,words , thoughts everything  ; I try to make others happy yet most never seem satisfied  ; Just someone … ;
“When all I want is for you to see
The side that I don’t show to anyone
In fear that they may turn and run
Alone and incomplete
No more tears to cry
No more blood to bleed”
http://youtu.be/PGyaWKp4Szc