I’ve reached the point where i’m am unable of being happy. this is permanent. I don’t even have it in me anymore to fake a smile which is required in this fake world.  If fear of suicide keeps standing in the way i could end up homeless or on drugs. what’s the point of living that way …. i have to do it and fast
That’s my biggest problem. I’ve made up my mind a long time ago that this is what i wanted but i still have no idea how i could end my life without too much physical pain. Physical pain is what keeps me away from suicide but i can only hope that it’s a matter of time before i find the miracle suicide method. My biggest fear is living for many more years in shame and regret because of my fear for physical pain. But sometimes i tell myself that the pain i feel inside is probably greater than any pain any suicide method would involve.There’s […]