the past two days have been hell. the person i care the most about lied and back stabbed me. i’m afraid of myself. im afraid that im going to fall back into my old habits. the only thing i’ve eaten for two days is about 5 nacho chips. (no cheese) and i have mostly lost my entire desire to even eat. im never hungry anymore and im eating less and less. i’m afraid because this is how my pattern starts i know it is. i guess im not exactly sure what im doing on this blog or even just writing this but i dont know […]
i live by a quote. i know it seems stupid but as soon as i found it i knew that it would be important to me.
“no man is free if he fears death. but the minute you conquer the fear of death, at that moment you are free.”
i love that quote. i love the challenge of it. and when i thought i was living in hell and i couldn’t wait to die i thought i won. i thought that i had found the meaning of life and that i was ready to die. i thought i was free. but the truth is, i wasn’t. i […]
why do people hurt themselves? why do they want to die? because they believe, TRULY believe that their lives are a living hell. that there is no way they can ever go back and change it. that there’s no way out. is that true? is there a point of no return? well, that all depends on the perspective. everyone, everywhere, any situation can be changed. you can always go back and change yourself and your life for the better. i know because i was there, i was hopeless. that’s what i thought, but i was so wrong. if you’re still reading this keep reading…for everyone […]