I talk about this with a lot of people, but I take it so lightly and act like talking about it doesn’t hurt but it does. You probably want to know what I act like I take “lightly”. It’s about my biological Dad, he was abusive and would hurt my Mom and I. When I was two she divorced him but I still remember what he did to me. He would hit me and one time he actually held me over our balcony and almost dropped me. You may not believe me about this because a lot of people don’t but it’s true. I remember […]
It’s 9:48 AM and all I remember from last night was me sitting in my room, crying, and contemplating death. I remember me sitting there on my bed looking at the pile of pills calling my name. I sometimes think that I think to much, but maybe I don’t, maybe I think about the bad stuff to much. I decided that I should start thinking about everything positive in my life. There are people out there dealing with way bigger problems than mine. Some people are dealing with cancer, somebody’s parents died, they’re brother or sister died, and some people are starving. My life is […]
I ruined it all, my best friend was and maybe still is going through a really hard time and I was there for her. But one night, I was in the exact same position as her. I wanted to die, I wanted to cut myself, pop some pills and she did nothing to help me, she did nothing to help me get through it. I was so angry at her that I decided to post something on Tumblr about how angry I was at her and asking why she didn’t give a fuck. She got so angry when she read that. She messaged me saying […]
I want it all to end. I want to leave everything behind. I’m tired of going to school and putting on a happy face, but I have to because at my school if you show that there’s actually something actually wrong people judge you, and they think you’re “acting” sad to get attention. I don’t have friends that I’m comfortable enough to talk to about my problems. I have one friend that I have talked to about some stuff and she didn’t understand, she stopped being my friend after I told her. Everything for me changed when I told her because she let everyone else know […]