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by iambeautiful 11/13/2016

written by iambeautiful

Hi guys. I would really love to hear your story of why you are here. We all have some pain which has brought us together. Please post your story
I’ll start with mine

I am 23. I first started having suicidal tendancies 5 years back. Anything that could take me away from this world excited me. I was not unhappy but I didn’t want to live. Maybe because It felt mundane. I have never attempted to commit suicide but I have at sometime wanted to. I have used blades to cut and rubber bands to snap. The physical pain sometimes helped me cope with emotional pain. […]

11/13/2016 9 comments

My first cut

by iambeautiful 10/16/2015

written by iambeautiful

My hands are trembling. I really want to, but it is wrong. I should’nt feel like this. It is wrong. Which sane person gets pleasure from pain. Self inflicted pain. But it sets me free. It sets my soul free atleast for a while. And the scars lighten and disappear eventually. It’s not like i am murdering someone or even commiting suicide. It helps me put things in perspective. My mind isn’t clouded anymore. I forget my sorrow and pain. The emotional pain. It disappears. The sting takes over all that I am feeling. I can cope with it. Yes. I know I want to. […]

10/16/2015 2 comments

Am i suicidal?

by iambeautiful 4/13/2013

written by iambeautiful

I have never tried to commit suicide or even as much as tried to hurt myself. But I have a constant urge to hurt myself. Like if i stand on a railway platform a thought crosses my head what if i jump?A voice stops me which says no don’t do it . Its not a sane thing to do. But i don’t know how to stop the urge. Someone please tel me am i suicidal or is it just normal. I have been getting these thoughts since 5 years.

4/13/2013 10 comments