Faith

Faith

I am young, a person who would be considered "to young to die". But to me age is only a number. I have no been like this forever. It was only when I was able to step back and fully observe myself, my life, the world...from a new, wiser, older perspective that I realized how horribly wrong I am; how wrong everything is. I have always been alone, but only now am I lonely. I wish I could be with people, and then in the rare situation when I am with people I do not want to be with them. They behave as animals in my mind. Many people say I am beyond my years. I look at the world from a different perspective than most my age. I find the company of older people better and more attractive than those of my own age. I am quiet, but my eyes do not lie. That is my worst trait. People can see my pain, my anguish, my anger, all reflected there. It repels them, whether they realize it or not. I don't even know why I am here. I came across this site when I Googled the lyrics for a song I am writing. I guess I feel attracted to a place where people like me are. All I have left now is music. I sing, but only in my own presence. I write lyrics, but not music. Its a way for me to express my feelings. I cut as well. I started recently. I do not do it in patterns or even daily. Only when I most need to escape. I have a few friends over the internet, but only one knows me for who I am. I don't know what else to write, but if this site has a message program I suppose whoever is interested enough can message me..As long as you do not inquire about my age.