I’ve planned out suicides as it’s obvious what happen since I’m still here. I really don’t care what I’m leaving behind at this point. However, every time I attempt, I can’t finish it. My question is do people who actually complete it have a higher pain threshold and/or a disorder that allows them to complete the ‘mission’? For the sake of me, when I put that bag over my head I have to stop because it gets too hot and I can’t take it anymore. I think short of a gun it’s too hard for most attempters to accomplish. I would jump off a building […]
I just woke up and what I dreamed up was unpleasant for most but actually gave me relief. So, I’m a cop, and working on a case about a serial killer. He’s extremely violent with his victims and how he slashes their bodies makes them unrecognizable. Now, my female partner and I are on route to a suspected person who we think might be the killer based on DNA. We arrive at the target’s home. He opens the door and welcomes us in. Nothing seems odd except the gloves on his hands. Through our conversation with him, we let him walk to his […]
I never really noticed it as a kid. Things have changed now. As an adult, all I hear in the news is ‘college girls raped’, ‘such and such young kid killed’, ‘terrorists killing americans’, list goes on. Keep in mind, these news stations wouldn’t be getting good ratings if viewers didn’t tune in. So, I’ve come to the conclusion that we as people generally want to hear the horrors of the world. Good stories are boring right? I’d rather hear about some beheading (not serious). Let’s sprinkle in one good story about a puppy being saved. What’s wrong with our society that we seek negativity […]
So I’ve thought of all the ways to off myself and finally picked one. The only problem is location. I could easily end it all in my home but I actually have a conscious and wouldn’t want my family to walk in on me. Then, I thought about the train because it’s easy but then I’m scarring the conductor and inconveniencing the passengers. You see, I do actually think about others. I’ve literally been thinking about it for weeks where can I get it over with. As long as my family doesn’t have to see me first I’ll be good. The thing is I don’t […]
Whether in the news or through conversation it bothers me when someone tells me this person committed suicide. Committed being the offensive word. There is a negative connotation for the word committed. Committed is used for crimes. Such as, he committed murder or she committed arson. Committed is used for criminals. A person who takes their life shouldn’t be labeled a criminal because they aren’t one. Do they hurt others by suicide yes but those gone shouldn’t be further stigmatized. They ‘died’ by suicide. Know the difference.
All my life I’ve felt alone. At 23, I have great friends since childhood and had some good relationships as well. As I got older, I felt this disconnect from humans that made it hard to relate. By nature, I’m a shy guy and keep to myself. It’s obvious that it doesn’t help with my loneliness but what does it matter how many friends and relationships I’ve had if I still feel alone? I get attention from girls but I don’t have the urge to flirt with them it’s like I could care less but I’m physically tormented without any company. My family is dysfunctional […]