So I’ve thought of all the ways to off myself and finally picked one. The only problem is location. I could easily end it all in my home but I actually have a conscious and wouldn’t want my family to walk in on me. Then, I thought about the train because it’s easy but then I’m scarring the conductor and inconveniencing the passengers. You see, I do actually think about others. I’ve literally been thinking about it for weeks where can I get it over with. As long as my family doesn’t have to see me first I’ll be good. The thing is I don’t want to be found. I’d put less shame on my family if I went eternally ‘missing’ than it be a suicide. A walk to the forest might be a good choice just leave my ids at home and hope an animal will make me unrecognizable. Or jump in a meat grinder. If only I could put so much of this methodical planning into something good. I’d probably be a good bank robber. Infamous exit. Just counting the days and perfecting my exit. Til then, k.i.t
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Maybe at the hotel? Of course it depend of the method you chose.
Hope the way you choose is a painless one!
No death is painless unfortunately. If it was there would be way more suicides and no ‘attempts’ because everyone would succeed. But, thank you for the kind words.
There is painless ways but in my case it’s the mental pain of doing it that hard, my responsibilities.
What do you mean by the mental pain?
Your responsibilities left behind?
Can i ema’il you, rocketman?
Pulling the bag over my head and knowing i’m abandoning the people who count on me. THOSE WOULD BE MY LAST THOUGHTS.
Children counting on you? I mean besides that, most people don’t have someone who really counts on them unless it’s a disabled person they take care of or relies on them for help.
From my thinking, gun is the best, but can be hard to obtain of course. It should be fast, clear, no pain.
I get your idea, but I personaly wound’t be so worried about my body etc., because by killing myself I’m also telling something to my familly. I know my familly loves me but they mostly pretend nothing special happens. By making suicide public, there is a little chance that someone could start thinking what we could make different for another members of our family.
Nobody cares except what’s going on in their lives. I spoke to a relative about suicide in general and she said only crazy and mentally ill people do that so it doesn’t matter whether if it’s private. I don’t want my body to be discovered period. That is another reason why I won’t do it at home.