i love food but i hate it most of the time. No im not anorexic or bulimic. I just have this love hate relationship with food. When i get hungry, i’ll eat but after eating i feel like throwing up maybe because the food here sucks or maybe because my stomach is just that way. I eat mostly chocolate bars and one real meal a day. The other reason why I don’t eat much because i get anxious with people eating in the cafeteria because i’m always alone and most people are their friends. Bottom line is eating is hard.
I love music but im not particularly good at any musical instrument and my voice is terrible. Nevertheless, not listening to music may be the worst thing about dying. I love the beatles so much and even consider paul mccartney my soul mate (we have the same birthday!!!). When im sad, happy and just full of whatever emotions, i would just listen to them and other golden tunes like:
Morning Has Broken – Cat Stevens
Make You Feel My Love – Adele
Your Song – Elton John
Walk On the Wild Side – Lou Reed
Don’t Dream It’s Over – Sixpence None The Richer
Go Your Own Way – Fleetwood Mac
Take Me Home, Country Roads – John Denver
I just wanna share these songs to you guys because these songs helped me a lot. Maybe you can share your own self love tunes too.
I don’t know if i have anger issues but i do know that i get irritated too often and i just feel so bad that my head itches and i just have this strong urge to hit my head on wall and throw things. I do hit my head sometimes but when i do i would feel anxious because my roommate is beside me so i just cut things like my hair and paper and maybe burn some things too to ease whatever im feeling inside. AM I CRAZY?