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I wish I could be a cat..

by ilovecats 5/25/2014

written by ilovecats

Most indoor cats are the luckiest beings on earth. Well besides, models, billionaires, (insert: anyone you think is very lucky).

As a cat I would get all the affection and love I’ll ever want. I would not be rejected cause I am hairy and shed everywhere. Food would always be there when I want. I may even reject it and quickly it will be changed for a different meal. I may even gain weight. But as a cat I would still get carried, hugged, and never criticized for my huge belly. I would always have a roof over me to keep me dry, warm, and out […]

5/25/2014 2 comments

Seeking a painless death

by ilovecats 5/22/2014

written by ilovecats

From everything that I have read on here most want a painless death. I do too. But I give up. It seems that the only options available are painful and dirty or gruesome. And I want death so much that I am willing to go through the pain. After all it will only be a few minutes. What is that compared to a lifetime of pain?

5/22/2014 5 comments

I am jealous..

by ilovecats 5/22/2014

written by ilovecats

A few minutes ago I read about a girl that was able to purchase a shotgun and use it the same day. If I didn’t have a record of an attempted suicide, I would have the patience to go through the process of all the paper work and time to be able to buy a shotgun.

I have a plan but now I am ironing out the details of who will find me. I really feel bad for whoever it would be. But i’ve decided it shouldn’t be my family. Â So it will have to be a hotel. Yet I am afraid of my suicide being […]

5/22/2014 4 comments

I want to die right now, not tomorrow.

by ilovecats 5/21/2014

written by ilovecats

Hi all.

I am new to this (TSP).

Since yesterday Â have been in my room in front of my laptop searching, reading, and hoping. Wanting more than anything to find the solution to what I have always wanted: to die. For a few hours I thought I had found the way out. Twelve hours later, more reading and planning shattered my plans. I thought that finally I would have a successful suicide. Now I am desperate and frantically searching for another way to end my life.

As I write this, I am looking at my cat explore my desk. She makes me smile. She may be the only […]

5/21/2014 5 comments