Inevitable

I just can’t figure  out any reason to keep living. I bring no significance to this world. I contribute nothing. Everyday is torture knowing that I’m going to die. It’s like knowing that every day is your last day. This is definitely it for me. I’ve set a date. Soon this will all be over. I just must do a few things before I go and I have to wait for the money to get what I need.

There’s no way life was meant to be like this. The only thing that would fix me is a whole new brain. My brain just isn’t right and […]

So I was in the hospital in January for suicidal ideation.  Killing myself was just at the tip of my fingers. There was no doubt I would do it any day. The hospital just made me worse. It’s not what I thought it would be at all. I can’t believe the way the workers treated patients there. Just unbelievable! I’m still questioning myself about why I’m still here. I think about it everyday. I’m wasting the little bit of energy that I do have trying to push through the days. I’m not working right now, because I’m on medical leave due to mental health. I […]