Do you hate when people lie to comfort you? I do…that is what happened yesterday and today. So, I am talking to my counselor and I tell her something that happened at home. I say you cannot tell, please. But nope… “I am sorry, I am mandated to tell” was her response. Then she tells me “nothing will come of it.” Then today I get told “something will most definitely come of it.” I don’t know who to believe; my counselor or the other person. I was also told “well it was nice knowing you. They’re gonna talk you out of your house.” Which where […]
I got rejected a couple of times today and getting rejected makes me have suicidal thoughts. I do not know why but that is a trigger for me. I am numbering these by importance to me. Rejection number one was from my high school’s guidance counselor. We were supposed to go to a place that holds an alternative program for schooling. It was planned last week but you know, she suddenly has a meeting and then has to go out to eat lunch. Her reasoning is understandable but our trip was planned LAST WEEK!!! So now we are going to go there next week… 🙁 […]
I need stitches to mend my heart. I had to break up with my older bf bc my other made me. Ever since that and the death of my aunt and uncle I really wish to go and curl up into a ball with a knife and slice and slice until I bleed out.
My story started when I went to high school. Everybody thought it was a fantastic place, well… not for me. It was a fiery pit of nothing. Nobody liked me and I didn’t like anybody, I was a loner. I was constantly bullied but the bullies didn’t realize they were bullying me. To them it was teasing, it’s not teasing when someone’s feelings get hurt. Then again being a teenage girl, it doesn’t take much to hurt my feelings. Anyway, I kept getting “teased” and one day I walked out of my classroom and ran into the girls’ bathroom. Unfortunately I was found by the […]