Today I have three more days on this fucking forsaken earth.
Fuckkkk this shit man.
This isn’t directed towards anyone. It’s an overall statement.
I’m not Tryna be rude or offend anyone here. But statements that people have made about suicide, depression & cutting are starting to piss me off. I get it, there are people out there who have it ten times worse then I do. I get it that there’s starving kids in third world countries. People wishing and dreaming of a life like ours. To have food on the table, clothes, clean water & other necessary things to survive. But DARE any of you say that we should not be depressed. Or think about suicide or cut ourselves […]
Fuck it. I dont even have the energy right now.to post a rant…
Today I feel a little better about myself..
not the greatest..
But decent enough to function.
Does  that count for anything?
I hope.
Normally I wouldn’t wouldn’t do this type of stuff..
But I could use some advice from someone..
If you have a kik..
perfectly_dead is mine.
Here I am again. Posting another “blog”.. Expressing about all of inner “turmoil”..Telling a whole bunch of strangers what’s going on inside my head. Even though most of them, if not all of them, don’t care about the stuff I post about.
Even though I know this. I’m still going to post what I want/feel..
I fucking hate myself. I wonder all the time Why Im still here.. Â I dont need to be.
Fuck. No one cares..
Yes, I am still here. Sadly.
I really don’t wanna be here. But, I don’t have the balls to do it myself. I keep thinking about that day when I wanted to go up to the police officers and try to take his gun… I’m currently at home. But the place where those thoughts took place at.. isn’t too far from me. Maybe? Am I crazy to wanna try it? To want to end up dead? Maybe. I dunno. All hope is lost. There is no sense in trying anything anymore. I just merely exist. For what purpose? None. Yeah.. I need help. But from the […]
Earlier Today I Sat At The Library In My Town… Waiting For The Bus.. And 2 Police Officers Showed Up, They Were There For “Security” Reasons. All That I Could Think About Was Going Up To The One Sitting Down On The Desk… And Grabbing For His Gun.. And Shooting Myself..
This Is My First Post Ever… I Dunno If I’ll Be Back On.. I Hope So. I Just.. Have Given Up So Much Hope.
I Don’t Deserve To Be Here. I Don’t Deserve To Live. No, I’m Not Going To Commit Suicide. At Least Not Tonight. I Guess I Wanted To Come On Here And […]