I don’t feel like anything if that makes sense. I feel like I’m empty and I been thinking to much. I’m not in love anymore. And I dontnthink no ever will be I sit there and think about the people I’m suppose to love and I feel nothing. I don’t feel anything. I haven’t even cried and my mom just died. Should I? Why do I feel like I have no feelings anymore..?
Just when you think everything has turned around an your life is getting better it just fucks you over. Well at least how it turned for me..
I will finally be free..
I’ve gotten into contact with my biological father. And he wants to help me. But I’m really scared :/
It’s getting hard.. I don’t know if I can do it anymore… I just want to go lay down and sleep forever. I don’t understand and I lost my only reasons to live… I know they are in a caring place with good people but I won’t get to see them.. What’s the point now.. In anything in life..
-Jladd
Jladd here as all of you know and i figured you guys would like to hear my story.
My mom never use to be a drunk or violent. She was once a normal beautiful women who would give you the shirt off her back. But that’s not the case now. I have two brothers and a sister. And then one adopted brother and sister. My mother never use to hit me or anything like that but it all started after we moved into our new house and she lost her job. My stepdad was always at work to support us so i never really saw him and […]
An emotion so strong, yet so visible, yet to those who choose to see only what they want to, see only the flash of fire in your eyes, feel only a burn in the deepest depths of your soul, hear only the drop of one tear as it passes past your cheek, thesesigns catch those who care and they look into your eyes with the power of ice, calm your soul with just one touch and dry the tear with just one word.
My mother is still physically and mentally abusive. And she never use to be abusive at all but i dont really know what happened. My mom has said hurtful things to me like telling me im a fuck-up and im worthless and also that nobody likes a little girl with scars. Not to metion the physical abuse so bad that i wish she would just kill me right then, but anyways i just cant bring myself to hate her and i still care about her dearly and i even drained my bank account to help pay for her surgery and prescriptions. Is there something wrong […]
Hey everyone Jladd here or formally known as Jojo I would like to apologize to all of you that commented on only recent post offering your advice and thought and in which I rudely commented back on with out understanding. I am sincerely apologizing and I know this is no excuse but I’ve had a really rough week due to custody battles with my sister and brothers, but again that is no excuse to take it out on you guys.
Head up stay strong fake smile move on.
What do you define as beautiful in general?
Hey there everyone i have a question what is you definition of ‘Beauty’?
-Jladd
You are probably sitting alone thinking why me? Why is this happening to me? What did i do to deserve this? Am i being punished? WHY ME? I am Jojo Ladd and i suffer from severe anxiety and depression. Im currently on medication which only seems to be making things worse. I try to tell myself ‘things will get better’ but they never do. But i dont give up because im here for a reason and i had a shitty childhood for a reason and i had to hit rock bottom for a reason. I may not be perfect and have problems and scars but […]