I cant stop thinking about her. what could I have done different? I loved her and I let her down. The other day was the anniversary of her suicide. People tell me I couldn’t have known, but I knew something was wrong. Now i have a new girlfriend but i feel terrible. I never went to her funeral. I thought everyone would blame me. I was wrong, I am the only person who blames myself . But how can’t I. I was her boyfriend and she killed herself. I only wish it had been me instead. She was the most amazing person i knew. She […]
i let everyone down everyday. i feel like i always say i live only to keep the people around me happy but everyone says i have to do things for myself. ive gotten caught up in drugs and i feel like a complete failure. everyone says i need to quit for myself but i dont know how. they wont let me quit unless it is just for me. i got into a fight with my parents the other night and i broke down then came to my other house to get away. i cant help but feel guilty for the pain i put people through […]