I don’t want to go to work Wednesday. I’m off the next two days. But I know asshat will be there. I can’t deal with him anymore
At work I’m supposed to fill out these safety cards, basically saying that I saw a co-worker doing something safe or unsafe. Theres a drawing where you can win a gift card and other stuff. Well, I’ve got to fill out two a week at least. I already did a “safe”one, so today I just wanted to get my “unsafe” card out of the way. Well, guess who I happened to see go outside without his orange vest on. What’s that? My ex, you say? You’re quite right, you smart cookie, you. So I write him up the card, give the info half to my […]
My dog is sick again…
I no longer care if I live or die. Nothing matters much anymore. Not sure if this is good or bad, just really a fact I guess
I’m lonely. No other way to put it. And I’m tired of people saying how happy they are
Feel horribly sick.
I’ve taken to calling people who are considered “normal”, the collective. Like the Borg. Resisting them is futile, because they’ll just ruin you with their asshole-ness. Evasion is futile, because they always find the people who aren’t like them. Only problem is, I can’t be absorbed into the collective.
And this is stupid…..but I don’t care, I’m tired
my ex is right back at it again. Yesterday I was working in the fuel station, and apparently he kept telling customers and co-workers alike how horrible of a person I am. It got so bad that someone from the service desk called me down at the kiosk to warn me of what Alex was doing. shitty thing is, I can’t really do anything about it
lost track of how many nights I havent slept. I know I’ve gotten less than three hours in the past five days.
I’m bored and really don’t know what to post. Yes, this is a post about not knowing what to post….
Truth is, I don’t believe in love. I believe in great attachment, bordering on stalking and obsession, but not “love”
Why the FUCK can’t my ex leave me alone? I check my cell after work to see if my mom called, and saw a voicemail. Naturally I thought it was my mom, calling to tell me that she was already there, waiting to pick me up. Nope. It was fucking Alex. This time he kept how he loved me, and he’s sorry for leaving me when I was ready to kill myself that night, and how he’s sorry for calling me a ***** ass ****. Then he started saying he loved me, and how it’s hard for him, and how he thought he should apologize […]
cut again tonight, but it’s the same half-healed one from last time, so no new scars…technically
Can someone please explain to me why it’s ok for my ex to tell everyone he sees that he’s got a date coming up, but it’s wrong for me to say that a friend told me that I should consider thinking about the possibility of maybe dating again? I’m glad my ex has a date, maybe he’ll finally leave me alone, other than that, I don’t really care too much. What bugs me though, is after saying that I might CONSIDER thinking about dating, he throws a fit and says that I think he’s worthless, and I never cared and blah blah blah. Is it […]
I wish I could have some sort of authority. I do well with power, I get things done. Everything is about control. Everything  is about power. It’s all about who listens to you, who you listen to, and how shit gets done.
just want to be left alone. Just want people to stop coming up to me, stop giving me attitude. I just want to go to bed.
first time I’ve ever take melatonin. I like it. but can you od on it? I don’t want to, but I’m genuinely curious
just spent the last 10 hours in the er. boy that was fun
I cut. Deep. I regret this.
well, still here.