didn’t work obviously. *sigh* this fucking sucks i dont want to be here and i refuse to be kept against my will in some institution with ppl who really dont care. they treat me like a pay check because to them i guess thats all i am. guess i’ll have to do it all over then…*ugh* T_T cant believe im so much of a loser that i cant even get death ryt!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING!!!
so i didnt sleep last night
and i feel kinda energized
manic again i guess
talked to my friend online from egypt all morning
she’s fine she said just a agruement with her guy i heard
sounded more like fighting to me
but whatever.
i’m sure whenever i lay down and be still i’ll go to sleep
however i dont really feel like it.
i am curious about how long i can stay awake now
everytime i sleep i have wonderful sometimes scary dreams
i wish i could stay asleep for….ever though
but i guess being awake is a high too.
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/02/Cry-Little-Sister2.mp3
by: seasons after
cry little sister cover
BONES
BY Khalila Divinity
ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT
MY MIND AND I FIGHT
OVER THINGS THAT SHOULD BE OTHERWISE UNIMPORTANT.
“SHE” CROSSES MY MIND AND I DONT KNOW WHY
I ARGUE, BUT THE VISONS MY MIND SPEAKS ARE HAUNTING.
REPETATIVE. MY STOMACH CHURNS AND I TURN AGAIN TO ONE SIDE.
I LAY ON MY BACK NOW, ON MY COUCH.
BECAUSE THE BED GIVES ME NIGHTMARES.
NOW WISHING I LAID IN, I’D WELCOME THOSE DARK DREAMS, AS LONG AS I GOT SOME SLEEP.
TOO LATE NOW,LESS THAN 30 MINUTES BEFORE THE ALARM SCREAMS.
WHY DO I FEEL SO DIRTY NO, I WANT TO SAY DISTURBED…UNEASY.
I WANT TO […]