I’m always afraid of christmas. Something bad always happen in this date. It started when i tried to kill myself, some years ago… But this year… 2019 has being an impossible year. Only sadness. Only losses. And now my best friend, which supposed to be with me to give me some strenght, just left me behind. Probably because she was afraid of a relationship with me. She just can’t understand that all i want is some happiness back. She was my light. Now she’s gone, i just don’t know if forever. If it sounds ridiculous for someone there… well… i can’t do nothing.
