Just when I thought I was coming back up, back up from that deep dark hole, I realize that, no, I’m not. Now I’m even further down, and you know what? I don’t think I want back up anymore. Why bother. I’ll just be pushed back down, eventually. It’s so much easier down here. No pain, no sadness, no disappointment.
I’m not an idiot. I know how to end it as painlessly as possible, I’m just surprised I haven’t done it yet. Well, dehydration is my main route at the moment. Pretty sure if I really put some effort in, I’d be done in a week. […]