I feel like there’s no other way out.. but at the same time I’m scared. What if people who commit suicide go somewhere worse?
is waking up the next day and realizing you are even worse off than before. It really is a lie when people say things get better.
I just took a bunch of pills. my first time attempting suicide.. we’ll see how this goes. I don’t feel anything, not sadness or fear. Just need relief. Night everyone.
Tomorrow. I finally have the courage to end this piece-of-shit life that I hoped would get better. I’ve been waiting for years, but each year has only gotten harder. I’m done with this world. I have nothing keeping me here. I can’t wait to end this. Just one more day.
I don’t care if I die? Like, I’m actually looking forward to it and currently don’t care about anything anymore because I know I will be gone soon. I don’t take pleasure in anything. Not the thought of maybe one day getting married or having children. Not even the thought that MAYBE one day I will be happy. That just doesn’t appeal to me, I would rather just sleep even if there is hope for me. I’ve given up looking to try and fix myself. It’s all a waste of energy.
Every single day I’m in so much pain.. It doesn’t get any easier. I’ve waited for a few years now and it’s only gotten worse. What’s the point of suffering through this when it would be easier to just sleep?
A guy I dated way back in the day just killed himself the other night. It’s been so hard for me to accept, but at the same time I’m thinking he had the right idea. I’m tired of being in so much pain. I’ve been through so much in my life and every day just gets harder. Suicide is on my mind more than anything else. I just want the hurt to go away. This world’s too much.