i think im possed by a life that controls life in which were all victims im dillusional. and i think if there is away to “Heaven” i really dont like sinning i want a way out
knuckle-pierce
america home of the brave land of the free. we are a breed of american suicidal youth. we platform for a new america a suicidal run nation. a nation in which suicidal ideals would be taught in every school across the land. mass suicide in our public auditoriums,public body dumps open 24/7 visitors always welcome. bad huh?
since ,y mom killed herself i dont feel right like im broken. she was always nice but depressed too. se told me before she died, that she never wanted children cuz she knew shed kill herself and didnt want to leave a family behind. im next to die the next to leave a family behind. bye
i woke up that morning feeling great a very pieceful day. but the happenings of this day were not what i felt. first i heard mommy crying i wondered what was wrong, so i left my room and found her on the floor sobbing harder then i could have ever imagined. at first the paper in her hand didnt stand out but then i noticed it what was it so i grabbed the paper from her hand. it read: to my loving family, these years despite your effort have been very trying and now i guess its just too much how can i explain how […]
hung from a noose is how he found his daughter, the pain ripped him away then the thoughts brought him down. at first he just sat there deathly silent, then came the sound of her voice so real it rocked him back.it was the third day with out her seeming to last forever but the silence would soon be broken. the first thought was how to have her back? his baby now dead the vision of her hanging there still lingers in his mind driving him madder and madder to the brink of psychosis tonight he was sitting at her end table writing her a […]
how we thought it was easy to not comit wrong durring life but as i understand hell i think of the real shit life will endur but most play with it likes its a joke i see it as the worst to experience. but hell its life right, so let the thoughts die and slip in to a coma of mass expectation. a dream it is the thought a good life one not this but i think different every day maybe one or three here there but damned. hell isnt the day that you get a prize unless your the grand winner at the victim […]
the first time i logged on here there was a lot of suicide notes suicide pact request questions about methods. not a lot of hope for the stragglers. i dont read the post much anymore the thoughts always filled the site with morbidity . who will die this week of suicide which family will wreck this month? till death due us part. till the afterlife. continue alive.
this morning i woke up and my girlfriend was there lying lifeless the pill bottle next to her. i wrote a note to her mother and father about how much i was proud of who she was. but now I’m left missing her. i didn’t tell them in their notes that i was around her for awhile watching her, undressing her. i took pictures in various posses and kisses her cheek before dressing her for the police. I’m sure i never knew why she would she seemed happy talked a lot was active but i guess she had some harshness in life. i know now […]
y do we all do it? suicide is a condition we all have in common. Wat’s the occurrence that holds us? i think i would have liked life but mine is shit suicide in music art poetry, media Internet books,movies. its in a lot of day to day life but the taboo holds for the extremity of the reality of suicide. i have stopped cutting and going to the nut house. but still death floats in my head. a girl thirteen took the knife from her bag and dug it into the skin and across her arm. the blood flowed out painting the skin down […]
the bordum is getting to me ive been depressed in the past am almost a past cutter but damn with nothing to do i dont know what will happen next……….. suicide?
rivers of blood flow today after all those who disfigured enough to flood our ground. the death toll rose in months to the point of decay
covering the earth. cemeteries over capacitated and lands were turned into body grounds. amongst the death and rot was disease.
the flesh that once had a sight and smell of freshness now clutter the ground diseased scared disfigurement was the new vice of the depressed
depression the mind disease that spread like a virus. bloody lakes and oceans fill the world conquering the land. mutants grow under disguise
as the flooders re inhabit and spawn a new masochistic generation. […]
im a 0 or less on 1-10 so its done. but more itsa total overall with no real mater even though im a reject failier. fungh shosh hmm shhhhh
i know life last foever so if i die i still exsist.
how do i check myself into a state hospital? I’ve been in local care but want to go to state. how?
phsychoses paranoid dillusional suicidal. its a good mix like magic dust with relaxers. distroeyd me. scdal.HELL OCCUPANT.
in church one day the guy was talking about hell as an eternal torture that never ends and how it comes to those that deserve. i dont ever go to church but i feel if god was so great all gods creations would go to heaven there would be no eternal hell for anyone.. i dont know why they cant realize this but oh well. maybe when i end it i’ll be there in the place they so casually talked about as a place they wouldnt wish on thier worst enemy.
how can i either die or stop completely? i am in hell and my best advice is settle in