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They care, do they?

by kramdragon 9/1/2014

written by kramdragon

Hello stranger,

I do hope you’ll forgive yet another pointless eyesore distracting from your conversations. That’s all I expect most of you to read anyway, so feel free to disregard the rest of this rant.

The few times I manage to click on Publish instead of Move to Trash I question what good it did. How can I expect a perfect stranger to give two shits about what I have to say when the people I’ve know for years don’t? The truth is that I don’t. I don’t know why I continue to try.

I’ve lurked in the shadows long enough to know that there are a few […]

9/1/2014 4 comments

In line at the BMV

by kramdragon 9/1/2014

written by kramdragon

That’s what my life feels like. It’s that pathetic. The people I want to talk to are all there in front of me, but they’re not looking back to see me reaching out for them. I want to think that there are people behind me that would listen, but I can’t turn back to see for sure. Every once in a while the line moves enough that I get to talk to a perfect stranger, but they can’t help. So what else is there to do but go to the back of the line?

9/1/2014 0 comment

Angel with broken wings

by kramdragon 8/31/2014

written by kramdragon

You know that girl with the beautiful face,

Cute little body, not a hair out of place?

She’s always the first one to tell you a joke,

Share her advice, or give your ego a stroke.

Her smile can brighten anyone’s day.

She seems so perfect in every way.

Don’t forget she’s so smart and so strong.

You’d never know that you were so wrong.

You don’t notice the scars on her wrists

Or the pain that’s hiding behind hazel eyes.

Makeup covers the brushes from his fists,

While the truth is covered up with her lies.

She really believes that she deserves this.

After all, it’s been like this her whole life.

As a little girl she survived

Strange […]

8/31/2014 3 comments

60 Feet

by kramdragon 8/26/2014

written by kramdragon

I am a hopeless romantic. I see so much beauty in the world, in so many things. I can’t enjoy most of it, but I can see it’s there. One example that may seem a bit odd is jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. As a jumper in the USA that is the dream. It’s just so perfect. So many people before have done it, and so many more have failed at it. The idea of all of those success’s waiting for you at the bottom. A mere 220 feet to join them. The thought of it is so peaceful. The problem is location. It’s […]

8/26/2014 1 comment

Another reason

by kramdragon 8/24/2014

written by kramdragon

Another day, another reason to live.

Another way, another reason I give.

Today is my Mother’s birthday. It’s also another day where I have changed my mind about ending my life. All the wheels were set in motion, all of the plans were made. Then I was reminded of what today was. I worry about what my death will do to my mother on a normal day, but I can’t use her birthday. So today is just another failed attempt.

It was so peaceful this week, planning everything leading up to today. Now that I know I have to live on another day my world has come crashing […]

8/24/2014 3 comments

My Will Is Dead

by kramdragon 8/22/2014

written by kramdragon

I have finally given up my will to live. I know that there’s no point, when all I have to look forward to is more of the same. Even if I were to manage to get through this period in my life, it would just be another rotation of the wheel that is my mental health. I might be able to get help and become “happy” again, but my depression will just come back around again and again. So I’ve given up the will to fight any longer. That part of me is gone. My will is dead. Like it was a real person. Will […]

8/22/2014 2 comments