Yeah, that’s how I feel in society I am an alien, I am alien to mankind and feel like I don’t belong, been given the feeling I don’t. I feel alienated to what people have become – or always have been? I don’t know. How come ‘humanity’ is this disgusting mess of people torturing, murdering others indifferently? We have genocides, wars, hunger, murder, the inhumane exploitation and slaughter of animals in numbers almost 10x as high as our entire (out of control) 8 billion population (excluding trillions of fish). The world is burning, literally and in every regard, and somehow no one cares? Or at […]
Hiding
Of
Painful
Events,
Living
Endless
Suffering
Silently,
Never
Ending
Stabbing
Silence.
Dear Death,
You don’t care about just, you don’t care about fair,
You take everyone, the good, the bad, the old but also young in fair share,
So why not just take me?
Come near me, come at me, come take me – why should that not be?
Fear of you has controlled me far too long
But now this feeling is done,
Drowned out by the pain of
Existing in this dump, just shove
Me into the void.
No pain, no more being around toyed.
Just nothing,
Non-becoming.
Death, you don’t mind,
whose soul to spare and whose to unwind.
So why not just take one,
That […]
Every “morning” when I wake up, I long to just go back to sleep again, not feeling this.
Every “morning” when I get up, my first listless steps wander to my desk, preparing some “medicine” to dull my thoughts.
Every “morning” when I start the day, I start it with trying to kill those bottled-up feelings, that can’t get out but are killing me inside.
I don’t know what I’m doing with my life.
I don’t know why I am even still here.
No clue what to do next or how to go on – how to even make it through the day.
There is so much […]
Hey there my lovely fellows,
hope y’all are doing okay, considering. I’ve used this forum several years ago, and have been doing a little better for some while but now life came crushing down again. And I really have no idea how to cope with everything. Within two days, my life completely fell apart and I have already been struggling before with stress, self-loathing, PTSD, etc. Well, now I’ve lost my apartment, a good amount of my friends, while some others are a couple of thousand kilometres away and worst of all, I lost my dog. It is so incredibly painful, I only got one year […]