it’s been 30 years of feeling lost.
i just feel so tired.
i think that i just don’t belong in this world.
i feel ashamed for feeling this way.
i think of plans.
so people will assume it was an accident.
so scared.
but yet so sure.
I have been suicidal for a very long time. I feel there is no way out. I feel like I can’t let go because of my responsiblities. That is the only thing keeping me back. But, I have been thinking of ways to kill myself that would look like an accident. I think driving on a rainy night and skidding off into a ditch. I feel like drugging myself and then setting my house on fire while everyone is not home. They could get money that way. Taking pills just doesn’t work. I feel so sad that i feel this way. I hate to say […]