I screwed up I have been clean for just over a year… no cutting or pills… everything just seems to be going great but it almost feels to good to be true… I don’t understand why I did it but I broke… I started again and well I can’t tell anyone because I am afraid of what happened last time. I am afraid I will get really bad again but at the same time I want to get that bad because I was soo close to endinging it and I still wish I did.
it’s not like I have had a bad life… nothing major has every happened to me but I have always felt kinda depressed and social awkward. I can’t go back to a time where I didn’t feel that way maybe in kindergarten but that would be it. I was never the smartest kid I’m my class an I sometimes needed extra help. I have been bullied and made fun of for years. probably starting in 1st grade till now as a senior… I went through so many stages but nothing really ever helped. I have absolutely tried everything I was anorexic on and off for […]