Am I jinxed? I recently found some good decent honest guys to hang out with like every other weekend, or once a month to just play D&D for about 4 hours. But when I fucking finally am able to go, my wife (who refuses to go out of her own way to find her own friends) has a fit and keeps me stuck at home. I say stuck because I don’t have people whom I can shake hands with and spend time with other than my wife. I love her, but damn it, I need to enjoy the company of FRIENDS, too! This is the […]
I am clinically depressed. It’s official, really. I think the easy way out is what I’m doing now, typing into the internet instead of just leaving a horrible memory for my wife and family’s already miserable lives. I want to die now, but the consequences of that is why I’m in such turmoil… I’m already employed, but it’s just slavery because I’m working to stay in debt – there’s no savings. Right now, my furnace isn’t working, and it’s cold. The basics won’t get it started, so I have to call in a pro. I cannot slave enough to pay for this. I know it’s not my […]
I feel hopeless. I’ve known about this site for awhile and I tend to use it to help myself out of my bind. Mostly, I read some posts and if I get the nerve I’ll … rant. It seems theraputic, and after almost a dozen ‘strangers’ emailed me when I choked on a bottle of sleeping pills… Well, only a select few would bother emailing. And I mean a select few were honestly being supportive and so I reciprocated. Its overwhelming, but it was awesome. Unfortunately, this is a scar in my spirit, so it will literally never go away. Memory is like that. And […]
Controlled Piracy. That’s what’s got us all here, the suicidal, and the ones sayin’ “Bon Voyage!” (whom are the worst of all here. You know who you are). What is this reality we’re living in? Why is everyone born into slavery under $omething that never existed? When will the world just end? Where are They going? And who are you?
I hate.
…I’m aware, and too many people are ignorant. The difference between ignorance and innocence is that innocence doesn’t last. Sooner than later someone realizes that there is something very very wrong with the world in general. When that happens, you cross the line forever: either you ignore that knowledge or you keep your innocence and you do something with that knowledge.
I have concluded that what’s wrong with the world is that there are evil monsters in the guise of humans hell-bent on killing as many of us as possible. And so, finding myself as powerless as the next blogger, I struggle with either hoping that […]
I honestly don’t know how to describe how I feel about even posting here. There are so many things going right in my life, and yet I believe that so much more is wrong wrong wrong. I’m married to a wonderful woman, and that is, and she is the highlight of my life. Not one minute before I met her I had “decided” what I would do for whatever my lifetime would be… Ugh this is hard… Anyway, leave it to the Hollywood Conspiracy to make an axiom a funny, “The nerds were right.” I believe the nerds are still right about the world and […]