Suicide is not an option, but it does not stop the thoughts from creeping back into my mind. The feeling of not belonging is so strong that it haunts me constantly. I am here because it seems cruel to remove myself from the people who love me. My mother who loves me and raised me would be devastated if I was to die, it would not be fair to her if I killed myself when she worked so hard for me to stay safe.
A god seems so unrealistic but at the same time I would be a fool not to believe, but what exactly […]
