Edit for Apr 23: If I didn’t put my arm up fast enough, I’d be fucking blind right now. Completely blind in one eye. For the rest of my life. I HATE MATTHEW SO FUCKING MUCH! He thinks that I will forgive him every time. Well, I’ve fucking had it with his absolute bullshit. I’m not putting up with him anymore. I will never let him hold my gun ever again. That was one of the scariest moments of my life. I wanted to beat him until he was unconscious. If my reflexes were not fast enough. Every time I think back, I’m so fucking […]
Last night, I was stressed. I feel like it’s just all my emotions beginning to leak out. I had a pretty bad headache too. I just kept slamming my palm into my forehead, hoping it would just stop. It gave me a moment of relief and then it just continued to hurt. I don’t like consuming medicine because it weakens your body’s natural fighting. It might sound like a stupid reason, but it’s not in the long run, it’s not. It’s like I’m stuck here, for 3 more years. It sucks. I still hate myself. my left arm still hasn’t healed and you can see […]
When I was 4, my parents split up. My mother never fought for me. She just ran to another state. My brother and I ended up living my life with my father. My father got with another woman who was mentally ill. They had 2 more children together. That woman thought there were maggots and worms under our skin while our father was out working. That woman started to cut some of my skin off and only saw blood. My father got home eventually and found a puddle of blood on the floor. He argued with her for the longest time. After that, she locked […]