It’s a sad day to learn how much your father dislikes you. Resents your very existence. My idea of our relationship was so off its shocking. I thought we were close and that he was proud of me. Unfortunately, that is not the case. He looks at me with disgust and expresses it every chance he gets. I think the world of him. He is the best man I know and to have someone that I admire so much think so little of me takes my breathe away. It’s hard to inhale. Literally hard and […]
There isn’t a day that passes that I don’t think of ending my life. I continue to live for my family, although latley that reason doesn’t hold as much weight as it used to. I feel like all I am is a burden for them. I’ve tried my whole life to succeed and be a positive person in this world but it just seems I can’t catch a break. I’m on my 4th hip surgery and I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I’m in such a dark place and have been here before. I’m tired of the fight. […]