It’s a sad day to learn how much your father dislikes you. Resents your very existence. My idea of our relationship was so off its shocking. I thought we were close and that he was proud of me. Unfortunately, that is not the case. He looks at me with disgust and expresses it every chance he gets. I think the world of him. He is the best man I know and to have someone that I admire so much think so little of me takes my breathe away. It’s hard to inhale. Literally hard and hurts so deep. I’m alone and I’m so so sad. I try everyday to hope and do good but I fail…… Every single time. Just lost.
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Is this something you just recently discovered?
Echoing my thoughts exactly.
Hey LG,
It sounds like your father had a serious issue with something in particular. Like dropping out of college or deciding to be an itinerant oboe player.
I’d like to know more of your story. I’d like to help. Sometimes a little ranting and comments from the Hazy-SeeSmith peanut gallery can do wonders.
Sometimes.
Other times we are just itinerant oboe players.
It’s common knowledge that lute players get all the girls.
Kazoo virtuosos are a close second.
Some of us aren’t trying to get *all* the girls. Some of us only want one delicious orphan.
Thank you for your words.
i had similar experience myself. i grew up worshiping my father and he threw me out. its one of the main reasons i want to kill myself.
I’m so sorry. I feel your hurt. It’s visceral. I try to live for me as should you. I know it’s hard and lonely at times. I’m with ya.
I think it’s a combination of things really. I have had several major surgeries and right know I can’t walk or care for myself. I’m 36. Not married and no kids. I was not your typical girl growing up. I didn’t follow the rule book according to him but that’s what I thought he admired about me. That I was strong and different. It turns out he hates it. My sister is the perfect child according to him. She’s well educated and married. She followed the rule book. I think he just resents me because Im a burden. My life has been 1 surgery after the next.