I’ve always been what kids at school call a “loner”. (And I never had a problem with it until people started acting like it was something to be ashamed of. I actually enjoyed my solitude before that because that was just me…..anyways this isn’t a post to talk about why I hate being a “loner”(still hate the way people say it lol), I’m just trying to understand something. I’m 17 years old and I’m currently in my junior year of high school. So here’s the thing; I’ve spent all my years of school being this lonely guy who didn’t really interact much with all the […]
At long last, I’ve found myself……As a kid I’ve always enjoyed my time of solitude. I didn’t need anyone’s company to keep me happy. And I was always this way….until sometime around the age of 1o and 11 I lost myself. I started to let people mess with me. I let them get in my head. I started to let people tell me I was no good. And I believed it. They would tell me that I was weird because I didn’t talk a lot like them. They would tell me that I was weak because I didn’t have any friends. They would tell me […]
The storm that had once raged inside me has finally come to an end. And I’m finally happy with my life again. But I lost something. It’s not completely gone but it’s not as strong as it was before neither. I’m a little unsatisfied to say that I lost quite some faith in God. I’m a happy young adult again but I want to believe in him, I need to. I don’t know exactly why my faith in him has weakened. Perhaps it’s because I think a lot about him sometimes. A little too much in the perspective of science. I don’t know if he […]
I’ve finally defeated my demon that’s haunted my life for the past 6 years. Not only have I defeated this demon that once controlled my life but I have found a reason to live, not only have I found a reason to live but I’m finally happy with my life. Although I can still feel it’s presence, I feel it  fading away day after day. This demons’ chains can no longer bring me down to it’s living hell, not even on lonely days. Loneliness has always haunted my life. But I’ve finally learned how to live with it. I realized that there’s lots of souls […]
I haven’t been on this website for a while but I just came back to say that I’m not giving up. It’s not my time yet. I’ve been lost in life for far too long now. I’m a 16 year old guy who spends lots of time alone. I’ve lived most of my life alone. And I’m ready to live the rest of my lonely life. I’ve had lots of time to think. I’ve realized that this is who I am, I will always be lonely. I realize this was meant to be. Loneliness has made me a strong person. I don’t like being alone […]
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I don’t know what to do anymore…..I don’t know how to live anymore. I don’t know how to live in this world by myself……too long I’ve fought my feelings of giving up…..too long I’ve refused to accept the truth…..I’m ALONE…..and there’s nothing that can change that…..I have tried over and over again…..and all that trying just to fail over and over again….not a single friend made….I was born to live a lonely life…..I Â was born to die alone…..And I’m tired of therapists telling […]
Lonliness….It’s what I feel everday of my life….It’s what I’ve felt for so long….too long….I’ve gotten used to being alone….but just because I’ve gotten used to this, it does not mean that I like to be alone…
I can’t go on anymore. I have no hope anymore. I feel too much tension. I feel like im so trapped in a world of sadness and failure. I cant stop crying. Not a day goes by that i dont cry. Not a day goes by that i cant sleep. Waking up in the middle of the night scared, and crying. I look in the mirrior and i see failure. Everyday i look in the mirrior i see myself fading away. I cant hold on anymore i feel it slipping away. So everyday i cut my wrists, burn myself to try and fight the pain […]
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