Can anyone else relate to needing so much to get it all out of you but at the same time not have the words with which to do so?
I just cannot cope. Â I’ve never really been able to very well, but now I just don’t want to.
So, my story continues. Â I’ve got spinal problems causing chronic pain which I have lived with for years, but there’s no cure. Â Just strong strong painkillers. Â I’ve got mental health ‘issues’, to put it nicely. Â I have been diagnosed with clinical depression, to treatment-resistant depression, OCD and PTSD. Â Borderline personality disorder tendancies, with obsessional-compulsive personality disorder. Â My current diagnonsense is Bipolar II with complex PTSD, chronic pain and chronic suicidal ideation.
Recently though, this chronic level of suicidal thinking has escalated into something much deeper and darker. Â I am back to believing that things definitively cannot get better; I cannot get better as I am so […]
‘I’m drowning in these feelings and it’s scaring me to death’.
I have been suicidally depressed for 9 months to a year. Things haven’t got better. I’ve tried all I can. Things never will get better. I have lost my life – my friends, family, career – through this illness.
I just can’t cope. Please someone take the pain away. Make my head right again and my spine pain-free. I could deal with the pain on its own, but with this enduring mental distress.. it doesn’t end. I haven’t healed from one trauma, let alone deal with another and another and another.
I need someone to talk to […]
Someone please help… I am stuck and in distress and running out of options. This is me, and I am breaking down. Since I last wrote, I decided to kill myself.
Spent days thinking about it, that it was the right thing to do. Decided on a method that I could actually realistically do. There are many places I could jump from, but none were as reliable and surefire as the place I had in mind, because it’s a ridiculously fatal cliff and a place of outstanding beauty. On the morning of the attempt, I text a friend who I had met in […]
Hi. My name is Lucy, I am 20. I feel much older. Before dismissing me as an emo teenager, please read a little of this. I might be 20, but I’ve been through more than most people ever do – both good and bad things. But it’s the bad things that get to you, wear you down.
I don’t know where to start – it seems like there have been so many starts, so many horrible life events and so much negativity. I am currently actively suicidal. The thought of dying will not leave my head – I’m pretty sure by this point that I only […]