I posted on here a few weeks ago about deciding to finally end it all and take my own life. I finished writing my letters last night and I feel like a completely different person! I feel lighter and happy, borderline giddy, like some silly little school girl who has a crush on the popular boy. I’m going tomorrow to buy my helium tanks, as well as the rest of the supplies I am going to need. I’ve decided to use two 14.9 cubic feet tanks from the party store and join them with a t-junction. I’m not using a flow regulator because I don’t […]
As mentioned in my earlier post today, I have decided to end it all. If that’s not selfish enough, I don’t want to be alone when it happens. I want someone there to hold my hand as I lose consciousness and finally stop breathing and to remove my hood so that when I am discovered the trauma on whomever finds me will hopefully be reduced. Even if it isn’t possible to have someone there, I am still going to do it. This is just a thought….
This is the beginning of my end, it is all my fault so I blame no one even though my parents and friends will all blame themselves. I’ve been researching the best way to end my own life for a few days now but I can’t decide which way I want to accomplish the deed. I think I am going to try helium, it sounds the easiest and least painful way (even though I probably deserve to feel pain since I am such a disappointment to everyone). I have plans to visit the local party store to rent a helium tank as well as acquire […]