lostallhope001

Like seriously. I take it before bed time and it’s the only drug that activates me and makes me want to do stuff and makes me forget my suicidal thoughts. I am asking my doctor if there are any drugs similiar to zolpidem for daytime. If not wel fuck it, then I will use it as a daytime drug. I will keep you posted. Goodnight (2.20 am in Belgium)

I am a religious person, but I am starting to have some doubts. I was looking for what religion says about people without empathy. It says you should fast. Like what the actual fuck is fasting going to change about empathy??

I was going to attempt today. Didn’t do it AGAIN. I am such a loser. I just need more courage

Tomorrow will be my first attempt. I hope I succeed. Thank you for all the support.

I can’t believe we are forced to be here. Forced to live. I believe every human being has his/her own right to end his/her life. It wasn’t my choice to be born, but I believe I should have the right to end it. It is MY life and it would be MY death. There are people out there taking their lives in horrible and painful ways, while it could be done in a peaceful way. It’s really not fair.

This world really makes me sick. The best people get the worst things to endure, and the worst people get all the good things. Karma doesn’t even exist. What’s the point of this all. If I lived in America I would commit suicide by cop. At least you guys have the opportunity to do so

Why does death have to look so awful and scary? The thought of being buried also scares me. Why couldn’t we just vanish instead of die..

I hate this fucking life. I am even too lazy and scared to commit suicide. I would just like to vanish

I am high on zolpidem damn I really like this drug. I need something similiar but for daytime. Damn I love it and the ideas ans positive feelings it brings me wauwwww

I am a religious person, but I’m getting my doubts. If God really exists, why has he made me like this?

Apparently scienticts have found proof that brain activity appears to continue after people are dead.. This just made me reconsider my suicide. I don’t want to wake up after my death. I just want to sleep for an eternity. 1 life to live was enough

There is just no purpose to this life really..

My package is arriving in 2 days. It feels weird knowing that in 2 days I won’t be here anymore. I think I am ready

So I ordered the package with what I am killing myself (without giving any details, because I will not discuss methods anymore) and it should be delivered by tuesday. Is it normal to feel this nervous and scared? It’s like now it’s for real that I am scared

is there anybody who knows someone who killed him/herself with nutmeg? It is said that 1 spoon and a half is enough to die

Does anybody know a cure for narcissism? Even brain surgery anything?

Fuck my last post. Just forget it. I thought I healed, but I was just high on zolpidem. I hate my fucking life even more now

I have a little hard lump in the middle of my armpit (painless). Is it a bad thing that I am hoping for it to be cancer?