lostbutfound

The last time i posted on here was when i was feeling so hurt. I got better. But i fell down again. I’m angry, sad. I feel like those are my only emotions. And honestly it sucks. I’m mean to people who are the BEST. I’m pushing my boyfriend away, I feel like my world is literally crumbling. I know its not. But i feel it. I’m worse. And the sad part is, i try so hard to change, but i always end up with 2 emotions. I don’t want to push them away. Not my boyfriend.

I cut last night. for the first time in probably a year. I lately have been just hitting myself. But i broke out. I was so angry and sad all at once and my emotions were too much to handle at once. When i’m like this i hurt myself and i don’t feel anything until hours later. i feel so..empty. Loneliness is honestly the worst feeling ever. I feel like i have no one to turn to anymore. And it hurts me that i have to express myself on this website instead of my friends. So i thought they were.

today i feel like shit. It just isn’t my day. I just wanna go home get in my bed and sleep forever. Can this day feel or even get any worse.

i keep going back to the same person hurting me. i swear he loves me but i don’t think he does. I feel like my love is taken for granted and i don’t know it may not be, but thats how i feel, i always feel like that with him. He cheated on me i stayed because i cant bare to leave. he tells me everything will be ok, that he’ll fix it, he doesnt want anyone else. but his actions speak louder than his words. i need him. hes my comfort. my home. no one else is here for me. i feel like this […]

Why do we go back to the people who hurt us? They swear they love us, “baby i wont do anything to hurt you” what a fucking lie. We show so much love but to get so little in return. I just want you to love me.