Woke up in the emergency room this morning, and can’t remember the night before. Apparently I made another attempt. that brings my total to 14. This has to end.
Today was a very bad day, and now I wonder what’s my point on this rock, when not even my friends can find a reason to need me. I’m tired of helping those, who show no appreciation and can’t even forgive the slightest mistake. I’m tired that I can’t do better than that.
Are you ok
Or did you slip away
Will I find out
Or will it be too late
Is there anything I can do
For someone I just met
Or are the attempts futile
And should I just forget
Two years I’ve gone without
The cool barrel against my skin
Now I can feel it
The old familiar itch begins
I don’t often pray
But I’ll be torn if you slip away
So out to whatever power
I pray you are ok
One year since my ex told me she no longer felt anything for me. We were engaged. And when I got depressed she asked me what the problem was. A week later I hear from a friend that she might be pregnant with my child, but she didn’t plan on telling me, and she’d just ‘take care’ of it without me. I spiraled after that.
I’ve spent the last year drinking away my pain. But it just piles on. With a dead end low wage job, too much debt to get a loan to go back and finish my degree, and what few friends I […]
I’m 19, a freshman in college, and I’m surprised it’s taken me this long to lose my mind. I’ve quit caring about my life. I’ve never really seen it as anything special, but I at least used to care a little bit about what happened to me. Maybe it has something to do with my roommate almost killing himself, or maybe it’s because I’ve finally just felt so alone I can’t take it anymore. I stare at myself and see an ugly, wretched existence that no more needs to be on this earth than cancer.
I don’t feel as if anyone cares, even though my […]