I feel like I’m dying inside but at the same time I feel absolutely nothing. I try to continue on and some days I think that I am actually making progress until I am absolutely blindsided and am back to where I started. I usually never dream but recently have been having nightmares that leave me petrified, I couldn’t even get out of bed today because I was so terrified. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like I’m all alone and I just want someone to help me. I have tried to reach out to professionals before but they were a complete […]
I can’t do this anymore. I feel so much pain all of the time. I constantly put on a fake smile but I’m getting so worn down that I can’t keep it up much longer, I just want to sleep and never wake up. Every time I try to make a new friend group they just end up insulting me endlessly and make me feel completely wretched and then they leave my life forever. I’m tired of being abused and hurt. I’ve had virtually everything happen to me in life: manipulation, rape, living on the streets, physical and mental and emotional abuse, stalking, mother calling […]
I can’t do this anymore. I keep getting beaten down and its exhausting. I’m tired. People keep telling me that “you’re so beautiful” or something along those lines, but they can’t see what’s inside of me; inside I am blackened and crumpled and there is only a faint glow of life but it’s about to go out. I have been struggling on my own for 3.5 years now and I can’t do it anymore. I’ve been crying out for help but my “friends” either don’t care and walk away or they don’t know me well enough to recognize my pleas. For a little while I […]