Today I cut for the first time in almost one week. I thought I could do it. I thought I could be strong! I always think I’m gonna wind up able to be ok but I’m never really ok. I was mildly happy today and that’s a shock because i haven’t been even close to happy in god knows how long! I spent the day boating and drinking with friends but when I got home around 8:00 pm my depression got the best of me and I found myself with a blade in my hand cutting my thighs without remorse. I thought this would be […]
PLATING IN THE RAIN
Living free
Let your waves crash down on me
Home
Are you willing to be had
Playing in the rain
Had no excuses for the things that we’d done
Hill top
And settle softly to the ground
Not good enough
Had no excuses for the things that we’d done
Watching the stars
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
Playing in the rain
Had no excuses for the things that we’d done
Hill top
And settle softly to the ground
Day by day
We settle down
into this house
Waiting to be found
Playing in the rain had no excuses
No excuses
We’ve […]
So a lot has been going on in my life lately. I’ve dont what I always do to pick myself back up again but it hasent been working. I try sleeping away the pain. I try singing away the pain. I try painting away the pain. I try talking away the pain. Why now when I feel like I need to be happy more than ever can I not find any of it?! It sucks ighjjj
people say things will always pass but if I were to be honest I’d say that’s a load of bull crap, some things don’t always go away in a week or month or even a year, like when I found out I have a disease called OI that makes my bones very fragile and it is fatal my mom told my doctor that it would be easier on our family if they just let it kill me. I never recovered from my mom saying that even after a lot of family therapy but I am alive and that happened 5 years ago. Life is hard […]