oh how i want to go down 6 feet and be free
ill be away from this world and the hurt its caused me
so its selted, ill force a bullet right into my heart
ill end all the pain from the place it had to start
ill be in bliss and euporia and maybe feel okay
“i was too weak to go on”, ill make sure my note will say
im sorry for the confusion, you raised me right mom
it was me who chose to do this, so please try to stay calm
i know this is hard for you, seeing me in crimson
but one day youll realize that this was […]
I’ve planned it all out, you’re my only last hope.
You help me to understand, and help me to cope.
But if this doesn’t work out, I’ll tie a noose with a rope,
And show the whole world, my life was a joke.
I have many problems and always have. I was diagnosed with Manic Depression, Depression, Anorexia, and ADHD. I’m constantly fighting  myself for one normal happy day, although it’s hard it comes around every once in a while. But lately I’ve just felt so lost. I’m not like others, I scream and cry and tell my parents I hate them and I want to kill myself and then 30 minutes later I beg their forgiveness and tell them I’m sorry and I need help. I rarely go to therapists anymore because I never continue to take my medicine and my mom gets fed up with spending time and money on me […]