New poem I wrote. <3

oh how i want to go down 6 feet and be free
ill be away from this world and the hurt its caused me
so its selted, ill force a bullet right into my heart
ill end all the pain from the place it had to start
ill be in bliss and euporia and maybe feel okay
"i was too weak to go on", ill make sure my note will say
im sorry for the confusion, you raised me right mom
it was me who chose to do this, so please try to stay calm
i know this is hard for you, seeing me in crimson
but one day youll realize that this was my decison
im laying down to rest from this chaos that killed me
i hate to leave you like this but its how it had to be
so as the coffin closes and the people cry
i thank all the angels they allowed me to die