I’m still in the same bad situation as I was 9 years ago.I have to suffer just because I don’t have the courage to end it all. I want to end my suffering but at the same time,I don’t wanna give these people I live with a reason to party.
Is anybody here forced to live with their uncaring,sadistic parents because of being incapable of taking care of oneself?
I was joyful for a few moments…I don’t even remember why…Then I thought about my life and I got so damn sad again.
If sensitivity would kill I would be dead by now.Really,what the heck is it good for?
Sleeping is awesome.Waking up and realizing how much does this world suck is what I don’t like.If death is like eternal sleep then I have nothing to fear but I still am very scared.Fear of death is probably the only reason why I didn’t kill myself.
I’m the biggest loser in the world.I don’t even get out of my room.I’m scared of people.I really have to kill myself.
I should have killed myself  by now.
I can’t stand feeling like this anymore.
Even though I feel so horrible,I still can’t do it.
Ugh…I hate this world! I feel alienated from everything..I have no idea what I’ll
do in a world I deeply hate.I regret I was born in a world I don’t belong.
My life won’t change so I must say goodbye to everything.
I felt this desperation many times before.I’m just waiting to calm down a little,like I always do.
If I’d be dead I don’t think anyone would miss me much.
Sometimes I feel like a stranger around my own family.
Tomorrow I have to go somewhere.The problem is  that I don’t like being around people.Ugh..I hate that! This Social Anxiety is killing me!
I wish I could see life differently.Things would be easier if I didn’t see life as being meaningless.
I’m really curious what are other people’s views on life.
Life sucks and I’m going crazy!!Â
Why not try some drugs?I’m already destroyed,anyway.
I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live either
What scares you more life or death?
No one really cares
I think depression is clouding up my mind…I have no idea how I became like this
I think about the bad things in life and I can’t find  the good ones
I want to be different so bad but I can’t be
I don’t wanna be depressed;I want to see the bright side of life.
I’m tired of this feeling of sadness
Will it get better?
Does someone know what happened to jessdepp? She was looking for a suicide partner…I wanna know if she is Ok
No reason to live…I’m a fucking loser!Again my stupid brother told me awful things.He told me to hang myself.What stops me??
I could finnish it all.What to live for??
I always was the black sheep of the family and that will never change.They don’t care about me.So…If my own family doesn’t care for me then who else would care?
How much I wish to get out of that house and do something on my own!
I have two options:Try to make a change or Kill myself
I don’t know how I’ll end up
”You can’t have friends!This is impossible for you!” Â
That’s what my brother said in a rude tone.I can’t stand this ************.
If I think about it,he’s right.I’m too difficult…I’m a freakÂ
What have I become?Why am I this way?I don’t have a fucking idea! I can’t find peace.Sometimes I think I’m cursed
”Life is not easy for any of us.But what of that?We must have persevernce and above all confidence in ourselves.We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be atteined.”-Marie Curie
Too bad I don’t have confidence in myself…Can’t find my purpose,something to give meaning to my life;I don’t believe I’m gifted for anything and that is very sad 🙁
I’m just a depressed girl;All I do is complain over and over again.I know,I’m pathetic.
”Be thankful for what you have you’ll end up having more.If you concentrate on what you don’t have,you will never ever have enough.”-Oprah  Winfrey
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