I’ve found myself in a hurdle, and more than ever suicide seems like the right path. Like the only path. It’s not tied to anxiety. I sat with my father last night after not seeing him for a few months. My mother the night before. I felt a bit sad about me not being in there future, but seeing neither of them changed my decision. It was like a calm acceptance with a bit of sadness. Like if you ever been sad watching the final episode of a show or movie.
I don’t feel overwhelmed but at peace. I get to go the shooting range […]
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Mars
I knew my life would always end by my own hand, but really tried hard to keep off that path.
Now I’m just kinda creating a to do list.
My dog is the only thing I kinda worried about, I guess having an ex get attached to him worked out.
I’m American, so best way is by firearm after driving to a remote location where I’m less likely to run into anyone. Most stories I read of people surviving gun shots to the head, were shot in the frontal lobe and where able to get medical help soon enough.
I’m thinking of letters to write. […]